My wife was not a virgin and I was, please help me.?

my wife an i were married two months ago. i knew she was not a virgin and it didn't bother me at the time, now it does. it bothers me that i was not her first, but she got to take my virginity. I feels like i was saving it up and denying myself pleasure all this time for nothing. it drives me crazy that we wern't able to have our first times together, like we should. why wasn't i good enough to wait for. i love her with all my heart but this really drives me crazy, it feels like a personal betrayal. i know it happened before we met each other, but still, she got to do it and i didn't and now i never will.